hey there!

hey there! i'll be blogging soon yeah!ouh,happy belated birthday sabrina! love you loads! i'm gonna update soon..so see you!

lots of love,
fherzana[:

gagaga

heys! i just updated my blogskin,since it's only my second time trying,it's not looking that shabby either,haha.

:)

six days till keith the chatterbox come back home! (:

anyways i got to know his girlfriend,smitha.she's a really nice girl,a khubsurat punjabi girl with an infectious personality.we usually chat online but yesterday she called me up,to talk about keith.we sorted everything out between us and i think i've really become close to her despite the short time we got to know each other.she's someone you can really confide in,and someone who knows and understand you thoroughly.i was a little nervous when talking to her for the first time as i wasn't that sure on what to talk about but i eventually warmed up to her,and we spoke for about three and a half hours!shocking nah? haha.anyways we exceeded the limit talking to each other as we've been talking since ten in the morning till now,and it's nearly five hours since we talked.smitha's a close friend of ashraf,like,wow! it's like,he confides in her and vice-versa,they share this particular bond of friendship between them and all...wow yaar...so good nah? yup.somehow it's like,i just got a lot closer to her..and i tell her stuff that i dun't even confide in to anyone else.it's like,i'm just wondering,why did keith do this? i mean,it's okay with me,i'm just a mutual friend,there's nothing to worry about.but,the thing is,smitha loves him a lot and although i know he's sincere to her,i think he has to change a little.he should learn to be a little more serious in life,life isn't as carefree as it seems.like i always say,i want the best for both keith and smitha.no matter whatever happens,i am indeed sure i wouldn't want to lose my friendship with them.It's this priceless treasure that i seemed to have found consciously and i will clutch it close to my heart and never ever let it falter.i would wanna meet them,snap pictures with smitha and scrunch up keith's hair.like,scrunch...scrunch...and scrunch..haha!i can't wait to meet them :) hmm....nazim's like so late today,he's so dead,i'm telling you..seriously.that hibernating bear.

ouh,i had my history test today and it was kinda depressing,haha.but i could answer the questions and it was alright. now am talking to smitha...will update you again later....chaOs!

never cause her heart to break

never commit the same mistake

never hurt her heart

trust me,it is not that hard

fherzana :)

hellos!

oh my god,ASHRAF IS SO HOT YAAR!!! he's my idol,like so hot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i love him to the maximum..as a fan......i just edited his picture..it's so hot!!!

hello!

hey there!look at this equation:

saturdays=fherzana's off days.

thus,i'm blogging today.i woke up at exactly 9.32 a.m..Cos i had tuition at 10.30 a.m.Or so i thought.Nazim came at 1 p.m. today.haha,it's okay,he's a busy guy,haha.that's how your schedule gets if you're hot,haha.for most it may be an opinion,but for nazim it's a fact!yeah,so he was telling me that he plans to apply for another diploma that seems kinda interesting,then he's going to NS and all.Nice of him to regale me,it's as if he has nothing else to do during tuition.But i also tease him loads.So that makes us quits.For now.He thanked my mum for giving the cake to him and family.Too bad he spelled my mum's name wrongly.

Note to nazim: it's shariffa and not sharifah (gaga!)
Note to me:complete Revision Exercise 1 & 2 by Monday!

Anyways,my mum brought me and my sis to hougang point.mummy bought for balqis stickers and she bought for me this dress at This Fashion.It's so gorgeous!t's sort of a spaghetti strap dress,up to my knees,complete with a ribbon.It's black and white in colour.It's so cute!I also bought a pair of dangling earrings to accesorize the outfit,it's gonna be so bindaas man!haha.Then it was just a lazing around kind of day.Lolling around on the sofa watching a movie marathon.Also,family was getting ready for Eid (: .i was just lost in my own thoughts.Thinking of M.I.A.Are we okay with each other?Was it just an act before the old heave-ho?Was it cos of known feelings following in your wake?Or you just thought of being on the rebound?Yes,you spoke to my friend,but i didn't hear the conversation.I just feel in the wrong place at the wrong time when i see the website and just wonder if you're lying to me or just toying around with feelings.I guess i'll just have to wait and see.But i do know that i need to talk to you.This time,don't lie.Just tell the truth,truth may hurt,but you'll still have to tell me.Okay with you Keith?Please okay.I'm waiting for you to come back...

waiting for you

wanting to talk to you

everytime i spin the hourglass

waiting for these restless days to pass

guess i'll still have to wait

but please,dun't be late.

love,

fherzana

unreQuited lovE

Hey people,this is sort of an extract written by me,haha:

25th september 2008-it's a date to remember *.*
i can't believe i was thinking along those lines a good half hour ago.But after that,i was like,what the hell was i thinking? i just hate it when people just mess around with other people's feelings.Sure,i know she's near you,so much more prettier,sweet seventeen and all.But why did you have to spin a web of lies to me,raising my hopes then just crushing them with a sweep of your hand? Just because you know i was,am and will forever be besotted with you.I know she's the one you want,but why don't you be honest? As much as it hurts,seeing you be with the one you love makes me happy simply because you're happy.But why? I really really think you're my M.I.A..i guess i'm just gonna have to wait till 9th of October to know..

just a note to you guys

hello people just a note to you guys,i may not be posting frequently as usual as finals are up for the next three weeks.what are they playing at,having finals during Hari Raya?Anyways,I'm having a Maths Class Test tomorrow and it's on Probability as well as Mean,Median and Mode.Nazim had trouble trying to get me to grasp the concept of Probability,i pity that guy.Really.I'm just gonna have to practise and practise till i get it.Shamini met him just now but it's like,nothing happened.Haha.Ape lurhs nie dua!Haha.Anyways i gotta go,it's half-hour to breaking my fast and i'm gonna have a cold shower to sort of quench the thirst in me.Bye guys,will try to update when i can spare the time.I'll be back,I promise.

ps:// my essay "Hope" was published on "First Blooms 3"!!

i'll upload it sometime soon yup! haha

take care!

fheRzana

hey there people! sorry for not updating earlier yeah,been kinda busy with stuff.Today's post will be a combination of yesterday and today alrights! I had a Science Theory Test yesterday,a History Common Test and A Science Practical Test today.The theory test was alright 'cos i could answer majority of the questions.I even attempted to answer the chemical question on how to draw the atomic structure of carbon dioxide.It's actually easy but considering how much I suck at Chemistry,that was quite an achievement.Like,yay!History test was alright too,I could answer the questions with ease,and it gave me a good feeling.But Science Practical Test..I did everything correctly but I didn't prove that I did the experiment.That mean I could have passed but judging by the sigh Miss Er gave me,it seems like she has no choice but to fail me.Aargh.I'm so frustrated.English was as usual,scolding for the first ten minutes,take out a foolscape paper,copy down the question and do it.What else would you expect?Tsk tsk.Maths was FUN!! Yesterday we got back our homework books and I got full marks.I was kinda psyched,my homework was kind of improvingday by day..what surprised me was that i got good vibes from Mr Chen.He wrote,"I'm impressed!!Keep it up!!Special sticker for you!!".The sticker was indeed special as it was a kind of a big Kungfu Panda sticker.I got two candies from Mr Chen.You can see the picture up there right?Again,like,yay!I was sooo happy.Practically over the moon!Yesterday,on the way back,I suddenly got frustrated for no apparent reason and left Shamini and Ariessa in cold dust while walking to the bus-stop.Both were dumbfounded by the sudden change of behaviour but were kind enough to leave me alone.My frustration mounted even higher when I called my mum and she replied in a very irritated voice.Gee,imagine that.Today Maths was also FUN!We had to be in groups of four and the groups had to compete with the other groups to obtain points to get a large reward!We had to solve sums on mean,median,mode and probability.I was pretty good at that,and so was Ariessa.We solved it within the time limit of six minutes and obtained pretty good points.Hope we win!Hong Wee,who's also in our group,didn't do much except to write "Fherzana Rox" on my foolscape.Typical of him.Today I had bladder problems and my stomach was growling incessantly at the bus-stop.I went home,studied and slept,cos i stayed up the whole night two days ago doing Miss Dee's sixteen pages of D&T.Nobody woke me up,and my alarm clock was malfunctioning,so I woke up at 6.58 p.m.I broke my record,haha.Then I remember that I was fasting and made my way sleepily to the kitchen to get my towel and bathe.I saw Abah doing cookies for Hari Raya and I just greeted him.Smiling,I told him that Bibik was nearly crying when she couldn't find Jaanu(my cat),only to find Jaanu wedged between Abah's keyboards under his bed at the master bedroom.I expected him to laugh or tease Bibik.But he berated me for not closing his room door.I was appalled.What?How could he assume that it was me?I was barely out of my room after I reached home.Anyways,I wasn't the only one at home.The overwhelming frustration I felt started enveloping me and I snarled"How could you be so sure that it's me?I'm not the only one at home.Whatever i say nowadays are always sarcastic or rude.What else is new?".He started saying,"You can talk like that to anyone,but not me.".I sneered at him,broke my fast with a gulp of Blueberry drink,and proceeded to the toilet.That was when the floodgates opened and I sobbed to my heart's content.Exams.etiqutte,datelines,what more can I deal with?I went to Hougang Point and got some stuff done.I callled my mum up and just burst out my words,sobbing again.Lately everyone's been saying i'm rude.My dad,grandmum and aunty.My dad does it almost everything,so nothing is weird.My grandmum cares for me,I'll just assume that for now.But my aunty has no rights to say that.If she has the guts,say it to my face.In fact,I think it's better if she takes care of her son who's getting out of hand rather than ratting on me.Well,my mum's back and I guess I'll stop here.I'll be back soon,I promise!

loveee,

fheRz [:

ho hum,here we go again!

hey there,this is gonna be pretty long post for today.School was alright today.i was getting on fine with history,maths,english.cikgu naz wasn't here,so me,Khidir and Sabrina miled away the one hour talking about "The Dating Atom",basically so-called an vocal newsletter as to who is currently going on with who,who proposed to who,who recenlt had their heart broken,which couples don't look nice together etc etc.That was when i delivered a scrutiny to Khidir that got him a little off the hook.He has a girlfriend now.Like sheesh,why is everyone attached now??Khidir is the innocent type of guy who hasn't seen the dark sides of a relationship while his girlfriend is like,the opposite? she's a nice girl,sure,but she and Khidir? uh-uh.well,it's his life.who am i to complain? Originally we had to stay back for D&T but miss dee's on MC.Get well soon miss dee!Lucky for me,I had tuition.And double lucky for me,nazim didn't go into uptight-typical-tutor-mode for not completing his homework.Thank God man.We had a fun time talking crap and studying,also checking out hindi DVDS/VCDS.Both our noses were malfuntioning.His was a running nose,mine was a blocked nose.typical.then after studying my science and history,i went to multiply.com. you know,by viewing quite a number of girls' profile there,sometimes it seems like they have it made out for them. the perfect figure,the perfect looks,the perfect attraction. but they lack education. whereas for me,i'm okay acadamically but looks?figures? not for me. sometimes life just go by easy for them,yet so tough for me. sometimes i'm not sure of myself. i would look at someone's profile and be like,"whoa,she's got a nice sense of fashion.jacket with hood,skinny jeans,sneakers." but when i think further,somehow even if i don that outfit,it's just not me.It's Fherzana in another person's body.It's just like a wannabe,which i don't wanna be.I just want to be me. but,who am i? who is fherzana? what do i want to obtain in life? whatever it is,i sure hope i get the answer by 17th October. yet another year of so-called coming of age in the tender teenage years in my book. and then i'll gratefully immerse myself in the dulcet tones of various music in my I-Pod to-be [red in colour-CHECK IT OUT!]. haha. i love you mummy,you're the best. forever and ever.

ps:thanks to mesra for the quote "here we go again". haha

signing off for now,
fherz

hey there

hey all.it's the end of sunday and tomorrow's Monday.Uggh,i haven't handed in my F1 car to Miss Dee yet.I bet she's gonna kill me.I just finished helping my dad to paint the house.After all,Hari Raya's coming up!Wow.This September there's loads of birthday babies!
such as:

amirah-11th september
farhan-11th spetember
ps: what's up with the two of them?

daniel-13th september
nadirah-30th september

then there's october. my favourite month. especially on 17th october. i've been promised an I-pod Nano on the day the notebook gurl emerges fourteen. great isn't it? yup. now it seems everyone,like subsequently everyone has a boyfriend or girlfriend. but not me. let's get this straight:

fherzana doesn't need anyone in her life for now.

oops,it's time for me to go.

take care..
fherz :D

what the HELL is their problem?

SCHOOL SUCKS LIKE HELL.As if it isn't bad enough that we changed maths teachers-from MS SITI to MR CHEN-he gave us lines if we didn't do our homework and whatever so-called nonsense.Can you imagine I got 500 goddamn,sickening lines just for not handing in my work? And it's my second time!!He thinks i have all the time in the world to complete all this nonsensical punishments but I don't okay,I really don't.And then there's band.I've been skipping band for nearly two months now and Ms Leo was actually berated me for "truancy".She said she will cancel off my CCA points and take my name off the list.Yeah,whatever Ms Leo,do I look like I care? I've been skipping band since Secondary One,for crying out loud! I made a mistake joining band. Sabrina wanted to join band for some stupid reason,and I joined when Nadirah wanted to join all because of,well...a PARTICULAR reason.I was kinda closer to Nadirah rather than Sabrina anyway.I wanna quit band and join library.It's WAY better.I can gossip with Ms Devi about anything related to North-Indian stuff and whirl around in my world of fantasy,which is better than the real world.WHO NEEDS CCA POINTS FOR!!!! If Nazim can get twelve points for HIS "O" levels without being in an uniform group, I can also accomplish that if I let go of my laziness! And it's not bad enough that my Art sucks and I haven't finished my sculpture and we're supposed to start PAINTING it.Gee Ms Gwee,you're so organized.And then there my dad goes EVERY,SINGLE,SOLITARY DAY asking me to STUDY,STUDY,STUDY..BLIMEY!!! And to top it all off, he says he can't feel the same for me...SO THEN WHY WAS HE IMPLYING THE OPPOSITE FACT??? AND WHY DID HE GIVE ME FAKE LIES,LIES THAT I USED TO LIVE BY? WHY ME? I'M SO HATING EVERYTHING IN LIFE NOW. I wanna curl up in a ball on my bed and hide myself under the covers till I'm FORCED TO GO TO SCHOOL ON TUESDAY..I really feel like breaking down,it would be my first ever time breaking down..WHAT THE HELL IS THEIR PROBLEM?

fherz!!!!! *pissed off*

hey!

wow. i have absolutely no idea on what to type about. but since i have got nothing to do for now, i guess i could at least type something. typical. yeah,i know. okay. so 2e2 changed maths teachers. we got mr chen. he's fun,actually. just don't be too noisy and he's cool. sod it. science is looking up. i'm getting the hang of what is going on. and mr fu's really coming on wel. his sense of humour has really,really improved during the holidays. hats off to you mr fu! no more fun lessons with miss yong but strict discipline history lessons with mdm poongkodi. she's all right, apart from trying to be too strict. mother tongue's as per usual. english's alright. oh yeah! we got mr mran for CE. he's okay. not that strict. i appreciate that,mr imran! haha. on the social life,everything's alright. but on fherzana's life, i'm not really sure. first things first, i want to really flush you out of my mind, and i did. i did. but why did i manage this so-called incredible feat? well, it's becaouse of a reason i myself would not want to admit. somehow,it doesn't seem right. it does, but it doesn't. you don't get what i'm getting at right? so i gather. oh crap. i don't like the sound of this. seriously. well,let's try dwelling on it before arriving on a conclusion. but some signs are there,floating towards me. but i really really don't know. crap! talk about it later. catch you something soon! take care!

fherz :(

woohoo we got a cat!

wow! guess what? we've gotten a persian kitten! ooh! look at it! isn't it gorgeous? it's a darling! it's very very playful. it loves to nibble at our toes,bite us playfully,play catching,hide-and-seek,and whatever not! my parents actually spent about 800 bucks on it. wak loy named it "Fiona" as,well,it's a cat's name and one of his cats had that name last time. but somehow,i don't know,the name seemed to be pretty common...so i actually thought up with some names..and these are my family's reactions:

1) Afreen-"Eurgh!It doesn't sound nice!"
2)Furaya-"HAHAHA!"
3)Ishfaq-"It sounds masculine!" [actually it IS a female name!!-i protested..]
4)Mahek-"NO!"
5)Mysha-"Hmm..it sounds nice..but doesn't on of our distant relatives have that name?Better not!
6)Naaz-"It's too short."
7)Nargis-"Eew!"
8)Nasha-"urrm?"
9)Qameer-"Masculine!"
10)Rameesha_"Too long!"
11)Saaya-"No..not appropriate."
12)Shehzaadi-"Yeah!That's the one!Shehzaadi..just like a princess...Hmm...maybe not...too princessy!I don't want it to turn out into a spoilt feline!"
13)Zahara-"Common name."
14)Zaheen-"Nope!"
15)Zeenat-"Eee!No way!"
16)Zulekha-"No no no!"

Man,how fussy could they be? I was just wondering across theses lines in my head when my mum quipped,"Why don't we call it Jaanu?". For two seconds there was silence,but then..

"Yes,that seems nice!",my dad said.
"Hmm..pretty intriguing.",Wak Loy admitted.
"Yeah! I love it!",my sister Balqis squealed.
"Wow! That's an awesome,superb,fantabulous name!", I pipe enthusiatically.

Looking at our smiling faces,Mummy's face,which was skeptical about her suggestion,lit up almost immediately and she leaned back with a smile of pleased satisfaction.We were all for it! So,KA-BOOM! There is Jaanu! You may be wondering,why the name Jaanu? We could have given a better name,couldn't we? Names such as "Sarafinah" (my father liked that)..but you see, I personally think that more cats,especially persian cats,are given majestic names. But we wanted a quirky,yet cute name to address our furry darling. Anyways, just to tell you, Jaanu is a term of endearment that people use,mostly in Hindi or Urdu. My family and I are into the world of Bollywood and we love the art of Hindi,which makes us stand out. So,thus the name Jaanu. Calling our little furry darling Jaanu gives me the impression that she's (it's a female,confirmed) very dear to us,just like our life.So yeah! If anybody were to ask me who my darling is, I would say "Jaanu!".

After that,our family actually had a photo session with Jaanu,as you can see.We're all into him,including Mummy! She wasn't that into cats before because weeks before her marriage to Abah (my dad), a pregnant stray cat actually gave birth to a litter of kittens in her cupboard! And my mum is a pristine,clean person. Imagine her shock when she saw that bloody mess! Haha. So you saw the effect cats have on people? Like Jaanu,she actually won my mum over with her big,doleful eyes,a bright shade of interesting brown never ever seen before,and her playful ways,and her inquisitive nature,doubled with curiosity. Now I realise that cats are curious. Understatement of the year. I mean,heard of the saying "What happens to the curious cat?". Yeah,now I have realised how true that is! Hmm...I'm planning to keep a persian cat and a norwegian forest cat when I'm a successful journalist. A Norwegian Forest Cat is almost the same as a Persian Cat,but it is larger ( possibly weighing up to about 10 kg ) and they have personalities that of a forest cat. Brilliant right? Yeah...I can't wait! But now,I gotta focus on Jaanu! I will update you guys on Jaanu's latest curious endeavours!
Till then,take care and see you real soon!

fherzana loves jaanu! :)

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ahaks! that's all different sides of fherz!! :DD

yeap that's my and my best buddy irsyad...i wanna say thanks to him for being there for me whenever i'm in need of any sort of advice :) thanks irsyad! you rock! :D


and that's me,irsyad and farah! as tight as a drum! farsyan effervescence forever! :DD

aargh

Why are exams gruelling? Aargh....it sucks!!!!

hello!!!

ouh my god.....i just came back from the secondary two camp...ishiqa darling fell into a steaming pot of food!!!