ho hum,here we go again!

hey there,this is gonna be pretty long post for today.School was alright today.i was getting on fine with history,maths,english.cikgu naz wasn't here,so me,Khidir and Sabrina miled away the one hour talking about "The Dating Atom",basically so-called an vocal newsletter as to who is currently going on with who,who proposed to who,who recenlt had their heart broken,which couples don't look nice together etc etc.That was when i delivered a scrutiny to Khidir that got him a little off the hook.He has a girlfriend now.Like sheesh,why is everyone attached now??Khidir is the innocent type of guy who hasn't seen the dark sides of a relationship while his girlfriend is like,the opposite? she's a nice girl,sure,but she and Khidir? uh-uh.well,it's his life.who am i to complain? Originally we had to stay back for D&T but miss dee's on MC.Get well soon miss dee!Lucky for me,I had tuition.And double lucky for me,nazim didn't go into uptight-typical-tutor-mode for not completing his homework.Thank God man.We had a fun time talking crap and studying,also checking out hindi DVDS/VCDS.Both our noses were malfuntioning.His was a running nose,mine was a blocked nose.typical.then after studying my science and history,i went to multiply.com. you know,by viewing quite a number of girls' profile there,sometimes it seems like they have it made out for them. the perfect figure,the perfect looks,the perfect attraction. but they lack education. whereas for me,i'm okay acadamically but looks?figures? not for me. sometimes life just go by easy for them,yet so tough for me. sometimes i'm not sure of myself. i would look at someone's profile and be like,"whoa,she's got a nice sense of fashion.jacket with hood,skinny jeans,sneakers." but when i think further,somehow even if i don that outfit,it's just not me.It's Fherzana in another person's body.It's just like a wannabe,which i don't wanna be.I just want to be me. but,who am i? who is fherzana? what do i want to obtain in life? whatever it is,i sure hope i get the answer by 17th October. yet another year of so-called coming of age in the tender teenage years in my book. and then i'll gratefully immerse myself in the dulcet tones of various music in my I-Pod to-be [red in colour-CHECK IT OUT!]. haha. i love you mummy,you're the best. forever and ever.

ps:thanks to mesra for the quote "here we go again". haha

signing off for now,
fherz